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mon, feb 9th, '09  ♦  10:03pm

«no one's picking up the phone
guess it's me, and me
and this little masochist, she's ready to confess
all the things that i never thought that she could feel, and,
hey, jupiter, nothing's been the same, so are you gay?
are you blue? thought we both could use a friend to run to

sometimes i breathe you in, and i know you know
and sometimes you take a swim, found your writing on my wall
if my heart's soaking wet, boy, your boots can leave a mess
hey, jupiter, nothing's been the same, so are you gay?
are you blue? thought we both could use a friend to run to

no one's picking up the phone, guess it's clear he's gone
and this little masochist is lifting up her dress
guess i thought i could never feel the things i feel, and,
hey, jupiter, nothing's been the same, so are you gay?
are you blue? thought we both could use a friend to run to
i thought i wouldn't have to keep with you... hiding

[i go from day to day
i know where the cupboards are
i know where the car is parked
i know he isn't you]»

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sun, jan 25th, '09  ♦  03:42am
ça frouche en c*nt

sushi + krispy kreme + weed + poutine = «it's like i'm walking on sunshine!»

alwaysalwaysalways the weirdest sex talk with the gays & especially the lesbians.


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mon, jan 19th, '09  ♦  10:18pm

so i recently got an offer. a very tempting offer, if i may say so. which is most likely going to lead me back into the plastic surgeon's chair. and sooner than later, actually. if all goes well i could get my face cut open before summertime then looking hot under the sun with both a new nose & chin! but oh my gawd, the convalescence time for this one...i would be such a mess right afterwards it's not even funny. i think i could swing it financially speaking (however this definitely changes some things into the big picture) but, eating with a straw for a while? eek.

i'd be two more steps closer to that perfection which i'm aiming for yet am never gonna be getting anyway... which sounds just about marvellous.

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mon, jan 19th, '09  ♦  10:07pm
tiny playlist of gloomy comfort

«i know that we've never met before
but that was then, and now i need you more
taking me down off this cross
lay me down, down, down in the dust
whoa, love, take my hand across the crowd
i have no children
i have no husband
i have no reason
to be alive, oh, give me one»


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tue, jan 6th, '09  ♦  04:04am

just a moment to thank to those who replied to this, whether here on lj or elsewhere. profusely crying into my pillow last night did a little bit of good & as for the rest i'm trying to cope the best that i can.


tue, jan 6th, '09  ♦  04:01am

had my job interview monday afternoon. we were actually two being interviewed at the same time, and the other woman (a black lady probably in her late thirties) wouldn't stop babbling and babbling and babbling. which, i'm not sure why, i found rather endearing. i get so fascinated with people sometimes, i swear.

an answer should come about it later this week whether it's actually positive or negative. the pay's far from thrilling though i'm thinking it'd be nice to get it, regardless, even if just to escape from myself for a while.

fuck that movie's awesome. mom & i were dying in laughter last night.

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sun, dec 28th, '08  ♦  07:03pm

what is everyone doing on new years eve?

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thu, dec 25th, '08  ♦  06:34am

i've been having a total panic attack crisis laying in bed for 2-3 hours and i can't sleep cuz my heart won't stop beating like crazy and i get hot like i'm menopausing. this hadn't happened to me in a year. not since before leaving to vegas.

f**king hell i don't know what to do!!!

i'm trying to change my mind off things any possible way there is.


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wed, dec 10th, '08  ♦  08:14pm
recherche d'emploi hell

que l'on s'entende bien ici. si je suis découragée et extrêmement frustrée, ce n'est pas du tout par rapport à un manque de confiance en soi ou quelque autre truc du genre. nay.

preuve? si j'ai attendu 1½ mois pour faire ma demande de chômage (auquel j'ai pas droit anyway mais bon), c'est que j'étais assez confiante merci.

c'est pas moi le problème, C'EST LES AUTRES;Collapse )

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fri, dec 5th, '08  ♦  03:52pm
la vie m'haïs!!

recherche d'emploi: le bitchage;Collapse )

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mon, nov 17th, '08  ♦  04:11pm


i've narrowed down the list of films that i want to see, though i should really cut two more having no money coming in at ALL these days. grrrrrrr.

picks;Collapse )

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tue, nov 11th, '08  ♦  06:56pm

i'm turning like wingsinthewater and going all astrology-crazy now.

but it's too good!!

your daily forecast;Collapse )

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thu, oct 30th, '08  ♦  04:42am
loans & bursary: the final act

after many many many months of suspense, either crossing my fingers or pretending this altogether wasn't happening, the wait took an end around 5am last night.

it actually worked.

i can BREATHE!

some people buy lottery tickets, i gamble with life. and in that very strange way today i am thousands of dollars richer. mwahahhaha.

if i wasn't me already i'd kiss myself.

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tue, oct 28th, '08  ♦  03:28am

i'm never ever going to be stable.

never ever ever ever EVER.

today i'll be giving my notice at the job.
i might or might not bitch in the process, that's still undecided, quite frankly.

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tue, oct 21st, '08  ♦  04:52am
mood irate

i'm going to be nice, i'm going to shush, i'm going to...

ok, ya'll know what? u-turn ahead. even if it's in one year coming.

i'm going to be nice, i'm going to shush, i'll be counting my days.

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fri, oct 17th, '08  ♦  05:49am

surprise surprise.

i am being paid more than i had originally anticipated.


this is quite thrilling.

only one more thing, and i think i just might fulfill this state of utter happiness i've always been so intensely skeptical about.

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thu, oct 16th, '08  ♦  02:03pm

duran duran. metropolis. december 10th.

oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!!!!!!!

i am so there.

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sat, oct 11th, '08  ♦  02:41am
mi amor

i'm rushed with everything.


as a matter of fact i'm going to bed right about now because i am dead-ing tonight, but, this cannot wait any longer and has to be said.

HE wrote me back in the night of wednesday/thursday. HE is now fully aware of how totally insane i am, and how sickeningly in love(?!) i am with him, and, shock alert:
he's actually waiting for me to write back, for christ's sake.

i'm not sure what i did for my life to be so marvellous this autumn, but this is all beyond my wildest expectations.

i can't even dare bitching about having been this sick.

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fri, oct 10th, '08  ♦  05:50pm

new comments today;

i find it just a little frustrating how most people apparently do NOT know how to read. nevertheless, absolutely fascinating.

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tue, oct 7th, '08  ♦  07:31pm
survey stolen from sara

A survey!Collapse )

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